JLo please.

JLo has nothing to do with what I am about to write. Some song of hers randomly came up.

Now that I have gotten some sort of attention from you, lets git ta bizniz.

Marriage.

Yep, lets discuss. 

As random as that came about is about as random as it was for me today in everything I did.

Marriage was talked about in every place I went to today and last night: tribes, work, chapel, class, etc. I thought it was some sick joke. 

I really dont want to hear about it. I have no desire to learn of other peoples dealings with it, I dont want to know how hopeful you may be for the weather to be good that day, I dont want to sympathize with the fact the honey moon should be in Europe and not Australia. no, i dont want to see your wedding dress, and I dont care if you got your reception dress at Dillards for $100 instead of $200.

Its all way over my head and I'm not in the mood.

But the crazy thing is, and I must confess this, is that I am looking forward to that moment in my life with great anticipation.

 I am looking forward to seeing the look on his face when our hands meet in front of everyone we know and just think about how well they fit together and how warm they'll be. Forever.

I feel really dumb writing this. Almost embarrassed. Kinda feel like I should erase all of this. But I wont.

A very wise dancer said that when we are willing to accept the fact that God will be all that we have and still feel like we can't get enough of Him, then you are ready to put your hand into someone else's forever.

And when we think we need some hand in ours just to feel like we belong to them, then you better let go. 

I should start thinking that way.