It is raining.

I don't think there has been such a difficult time as this.

The time right now, with the issues pressing on and the helplessness I feel among it all.

The tightening of my neck and the short breaths I take are only a little bit of the physical reactions to what's in my mind.

I can't even begin with what IS inside.

But as I speak those that I need don't want to listen.

And as I don't speak, others are willing to spend the time.

I'm confused, angry, expectant, irritated, sleepless, lonely and afraid.

But mostly, expectant.

So what now?

Can someone please answer me that?